It's the questions everyone has been asking me. And I don't blame them. After all, weddings are generally greatly celebrated in our country. And now it's my turn. I'm the one who will be waiting on my beautiful bride at the end of the aisle.
So, what's my answer to the question?
...um, well... Honestly, when people ask me, I don't feel as if I'm jumping up and down with excitement on the outside...and I'm not sure I'm doing the same on the inside either. Please don't read that the wrong way. I'm excited, yes. But hear me out.
Tiffany and I were talking, and both of us have similar attitudes towards marriage. It's not that marriage isn't going to be exciting--it is. But truthfully, we have fulfilled lives right now as single people. We're looking forward to the wedding and towards our new life together, but it's not like we're sitting here counting the days and hours until the wedding, waiting on our lives to become complete. **Tiffany will not complete me. I will not complete her.** Any emptiness in our hearts has already been filled by the grace, love, and mercy of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Our getting married is simply our following His lead, and we look forward to what He has in store for our marriage, to how He will use our being together to bring Him greater glory.
Marriage will bring great change to both of our lives, which may also be another hindrance to a visible expression of excitement. While marriage will open up new freedoms for us, we will also both lose some of the freedoms we had as single people. But I'm sure that as in any stage of life, we will learn to enjoy all that this new chapter has in store. Our lives aren't going from bad to good...they've always been good. Things are just going to change, and I'm sure it'll take some getting used to.
For me, just the thought of marriage is such a daunting thing that I believe extreme excitement would be a tad naïve. After all, examining my new job description in Ephesians 5 is such a huge thing! I'm supposed to love and serve Tiffany as Christ loved and gave Himself up for His church! That's a big deal! Tiffany and I are going to be in the position to start a family, and if that doesn't scare the poop out of you, I don't know what will! God will actually make us be responsible for caring for the physical, emotional, and spiritual well-being of one of His creatures? Wow! And let's not forget the whole sharing-my-room-(and-bed)-for-the-rest-of-my-life thing. :P
So, yeah. Marriage. Exciting, yes, but a little overwhelming and unreal to think about sometimes. My prayer in our marriage as we face new obstacles is that I/we won't rely on my/our human strengths, but would instead lean wholly on His unfailing support. He has led us to this time, and He's not making us go at it alone. He's going to be with us through the rest of our lives together, and that's exciting. :)
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